yes, i have noticed 12 June 2008
Yes, yes, I have noticed that there was a gapette between the last blog and this – I shall offer a last day of filming which started and finished late as mitigation. I did attempt to do a mental meander late last night but the internet connection started to rebel and I reckoned by the time I had that sorted I would be jotting down the ramblings of a somewhat insane person. Interestingly, the actor who has just played my husband (Connor Byrne – veh veh good and can be forgiven the crazed double n thing going on in his name as it’s a family thing…he says…) is of the opinion that my Inner Idiot is out without it’s lid quite a lot of the time so presumably that’s who would have done the blog at the ungodly hour I attempted it. He knows what he’s talking about as he has a very prominent one too although, clever lad that he is, he has a lid that he can lay hands on when needed to keep the aforementioned Idiot under wraps, whereas mine seems to have been mislaid in some or other move. The Inner Idiot is a sweet creature who just wants to have fun and laugh a lot and is unafraid of making a tit of itself (herself in my case) to achieve this. As it happens, the II is useful when in a foreign country as that’s often a time when mime and pratfall will get you the directions to the museum. However, it is best to have some sort of control over it/her. Letting the II out and about can be misinterpreted. I know some types who think I am a bit of an eejit because I appear a flipperdeegibbet some of the time but I would caution against underestimation and anyway I think that’s more their problem than mine. The only thing I am trying to learn is not to bring the wrong energy to a situation. This is mostly a work issue. I meet a lot of people in this eternal looking-for-a-job loop that actors are in and sometimes if there is a vacuum in a room I fill it – I may have done a good and still and calm reading for a part and be right in there in the running for it and then, in a pause, reveal a chattier Pauline at which point (sometimes, not always) people think ‘wrong energy’. End result is no part. I’m not blaming the Inner Idiot for this as she doesn’t usually come along for auditions (she hates them – tension is not her thing) but it is a parallel trait I think and one to be watched. Again, a lid would be handy. I might ask Connor to knock me up a temporary one while I continue the search for mine.
As to the end of another great and totally enjoyable and absorbing job, I am yet again heartbroken to have left so many new and wonderful people. It would be a privilege to be seeing and working with them everyday till the end of time.
