pencil 17 March 2011
Ah now, the whole order thing is proving tougher to put into play than I expected. In this matter I am probably my own worst enemy and have, doubtless, started to big. (Actually, I love that rejoinder to someone when they say they’re their own worst enemy and you get to go ‘not while I’m still alive, you’re not’). I think my main trouble is the getting bored halfway through some of the orderly projects I have set myself and moving on without finishing any single one of them (then bitter self recrimination can begin). Perhaps it’s best illustrated by a simple event from earlier today – I was in a recording studio (Bless Advertising!) and was helping myself to a pen but changed when I saw they had foxy pencils – I prefer a pencil and that mark it makes and the fact that it can be erased and changed…and I wonder if it means committment issues?? (and if I will ever truly finish anything without hankering after change)
